Words of regret

Say it if I hurt you
Scream out if you hate me
Shout loud if you want me gone…

Sorry if I hurt you over and over
Sorry if you have to see me this way
Sorry if I frustrated you

I guess sorry is never enough
I guess you will never trust me again

From that day on
I guess I have lost a lover and a friend...



By: Nectar 30/06/06

Blessings in disguise

God sent his bless from above
His bless in disguise
A cure for the pain
A joker to laugh at
A friend to share
A lover waiting to be loved

You step in the right time…
When I was lost in grieve
And nearly drown in tears

You’re naïve…
But so surprising
You’re silly
But so sweet

Every little thing you do
Made me blushed in happiness
And shed tears from the past

Let’s not get in a rush
Let the crush blossom
Let time heal the agony
And bring you closer to me…

By: Nectar, 29/06/06

Still in my heart

I can’t lie to my self

I do love you…
I think I always will

I do think bout you…
Even in my busiest time

I do miss you…
Even when I’m with someone else

If you only know
How much I want to see you
How much I want to touch you
How much I want to be with you

Can you feel it when I miss you?
Can you feel it when I cry longing for you?

Dear God…
Am I strong enough to carry on?

I know I have to move on
I know you’ve made other plans

But is this it?
I just loose him like that
Ignoring the love inside
And throwing it all for good…

Should I fight for love?
Should I fight for us?

Ooo God please…
Why I kept questioning it over again?

I knew the answer
It’s all in my head
But why does pain still lingers?
Why does love still yearns?


You’re still in my heart b,

By: Nectar, 28/06/06

Never meant to hurt you

I never think it would happen so fast...I know i should've think twice that nite...instead i just let everything flow.

B i just want to say this to you..i never ever want to hurt u....honestly i felt guilty that nite...i don't know what you think bout me...i don't know how you feel...but if you want to hate me go on...hate me...if it's easier for you to forget bout me.

It's funny though...even if i have soo much fun that nite still i can't get my mind off of you...I still love u..it's true...it's not easy for me to let it go. But i keep looking forward...i know we have to move on...i have to move on...eventhough i have to sacrifice my heart...it hurt so much but what can we do? We're not brave enough to take the risk.

I hope you can understand me...and i wish you can find your happiness without me.

Now i know what love really meant...sacrifice and letting go.

One Fine Weekend

I just want to say that I had a wonderful saturday...meeting my camp's mate...it's funny how we still get along...a little chit-chat bout the past specialy the unforgetable moment;p I notice that day...we all still the same...the way we talk and react...our gossip...our jokes...our laugh but one thing for sure "fatness syndrome" strike us good. Yup that's the hardest thing to avoid "weight gain"...bigger arm...bigger tummy...bigger thigh...wakksss;D

Anyway meeting new friends and old friends is the best escape ever. Tough the memories still strikes me...even when i'm having so much fun with my friends.

When you're having a hard time trying to heal your heartache, people said that time is the best medication.

Yes I believe that too but time can't erase all the sweet memories no matter how hard you've tried coz when you choose to let him go...the only thing left inside is his goodness. When that time comes...there will be no more tears only a smile of gratefulness having him in your past.


Still missing u,

N

One Bitter Nite

Twilights set the days off
Night crawl showing on his skin
Cold chillin wind breeze gently
Glimmering stars light the dimly sky
Moon veil into the shady cloud
She stood still staring at the starry sky
Looking for the gorgeous round figure of light
But no use of staring
The gorgeous round figure conceal his look
Still she wishes to see it
Even just a glance
She misses the warmth beam of light
The light of her heart
No wonder the night felt bitter than before



Dedicated to the light of my heart


I miss u B




Nec, 14/6/6

From a friend

A touch of sweetness for the brokenhearted by a friend of mine, thanks a lot Arleen;p


Sweetness

Sometimes the world seems cruel and full of sorrow …
And you feel that you’ve lost all you’ve once found
But be sure to know that tomorrow …
Is a different day with sweetness of its own
Cause life exists with a million textures …
Each day, each second is filled with something new
And when you give the time a chance to cure …
All the sweetness will come running back to you

By: Arleen Amidjaja, October 1995

Lucunya manusia

Lucu memang
Melihat pria-pria bergerombol
Tua muda
Tinggi cebol
Teriakan lantang bersahutan
Cuaca panas tak dihiraukan
Geram di dada terasa lebih panas
Daripada terik sinar di atas
Tetes keringat menyengat
Teriak suara semakin berat

Panik melanda tersangka
Tersangka tersudut diam merana
”Mereka tak bermoral”... Seru teriak membara
”Mereka rusak moral bangsa”... Sahut suara dewa

Ya... layaknya dewa pria-pria itu menuduh...
Merusak....mencaci...mengancam...
Merasa mereka paling bermoral...

Lucu memang
Sebuah majalah menjadi masalah
Seolah-olah bencana mewabah

Dari fenomena Inul sampai Playboy
Semua mengatasnamakan moral dan agama
Goyang aduhai tubuh wanita dianggap salah
Pose wah menantang dinilai haram

Apalagi babi betina yang menantang
Mungkin dibilang haram jadah

Ya sudahlah
Makin didebat makin aneh
Memang manusia suka nyeleneh

*Hi...hi...hi...gw kan juga manusia;p


By: Nectar, 9/6/6

When love controls your life

It's funny how love can control your live
How love hyptonize your heart and mind
How love can change your days
From gloomy to bloomy
From a whine to a smile

But that's only the happy part
Wait till the sad part comes

Banggggggg...instantly
your live is turning upside down
Heart tearing apart
Days become dark
No more bloom or a smile

See... it happens everytime I let love in

Maybe I'll let my self rest for a while
Maybe I'll put love aside

No need to be sad
No more tears or regrets

I won't torture my self
I won't let my self drown
I won't waste my time
I won't let them win

Today I'll stand up tall
Put my head high
and crown a smile in my face


Nec
*June 9th'06*

The day i let you go

I blink
I breathe

It's real
It's not a dream

I scream
I weep

Heart ache
Tears drop

I'm numb
empty...

O pity me

I blink again
I breathe again

I scream louder
I weep longer

but I can't
I'm losing

my voice...
my tears...

yet pain lingers
and here you will remain
deep inside my lost and dying soul


By: N (The day I let you go,7/6/6)

You didn't call me bebz...

Today...u didn't call me bebz...
It sounds weird though...and i hate it so much...
I guess u'll never call me bebz again...

N